This is really quite a long entry. Written on the 6th of June, it was when I had the time to really sit down and think about how I can define - Depression. The purpose was so that people, friends who talk to depressed people really know how it feels like. It bothers me that some people think depression is merely a temporary state of mind, and how it's related to being lazy or lacking of will power to stop procrastinating.
No, it is not as simple as that. Do not underestimate depression. You might just miss them and be too late.
Depression cannot be understood simply because you know about sadness, or loneliness. Unpredictable and addictive, it is when one truly believes there’s this void in their heart, this separation from the reality that they live in and what they think has become of them - meaninglessness, non-existence.
As they drift apart, there’s this figure of darkness that slowly but surely enveloping them...swallowing them before they fall deeper and deeper. They will lose their sanity...for eternity that I do not know. But because the darkness shines no light, it is impenetrable, it is so difficult to reach them, as they are lost, and people who want to help them can’t find them.
It takes tremendous effort to climb out of this pit of darkness, and it is like it’s locked from inside. Perhaps it is by will, only if they really wish for it, can they reverse this curse, but really, they are lost and confused. Trapped, and their mind completely poisoned by the thought of artificial happiness from being protected by the darkness.
They have surrendered themselves, thinking that they are safe here but only to realize how lonely this place is. There is nobody else they will ever find again, in that place of darkness. And they mourn for their loss, they are sad because they can no longer feel the breeze in their hair, the touch of real people.
No, they have given in to the inner demons lurking in their hearts, waiting to feast on the self-manifested darkness that has been growing from within. Some try to call for help, but it only echoes in the darkness, seemingly hopeless and abandoned. People who are finding them might ignore it, thinking it was just their imagination, but it was really a SOS call.
They had not wanted to die; it was not part of the plan. But in this black picture of the mind, which has no direction, no desire, no life...they rather give it all up. It feels the same anyway; Then, they give up on the most important thing in life...life itself.
NEVER, EVER, Take depression lightly. Be supportive of them. Tell them that they can talk to you with whatever they feel. Keep talking but DO NOT dare or encourage them to do life-threatening things. When they think of "silly" things, distract them. Remind them of what they may still enjoy in life. Introduce new healthy things for them to do. Be there with them every step of the way. There is still hope and solution for them.
Find for the help that they need. Report to a counselor or refer to mental health professionals on what to do.
I wish you all the best. :)
shuttin'up wid luv,jozL.
