So Hollow

the time is 12.59am.

i am very exhausted. the night before I was awake to take care of someone. the next day i was busy looking for something for someone dear to me going home tomorrow. I just came back from my cousin's bbq party in which i helped out again, serving people.

i am lying on my bed. preparing to sleep. thought i should check my mail, and then i saw it.

your email to me, the first in a long time. it read this song- James Blunt's Goodbye My Lover.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wVyggTKDcOE&feature=av2e


i watched it, i heared it. every word speared my heart, i can feel your pain, what you're trying to tell me through this song. like every other song you've sent me before.

as i watched the video, they looked like us. so happy but so sad. and secretly, i wished...please don't say goodbye. i want to be selfish. don't say i don't mean anything anymore. i can't bear it. i don't know why.

You've seen me cry, you've seen me smile, you've watched me sleep...

but i am not the one for you. not now, not anymore. we can't hold hands anymore. we can't be them anymore.

this time it's really goodbye.

leave me hollow without you.

shuttin'up wid luv,jozL.